This one was written to Scott before I met Daniel and ended up walking out on a relationship that probably had a future. Yes, I destroyed it. But I don't deal with men that get scared. I need a man that will show me his cards.


A promise
Made to myself
Years ago
That I would never
Be
Lonely
I met you
Fell in love
Holding your hand
My whole world
My heart
When I look in
Your eyes
I don’t see
What
I think I should see
I’m with you
But
You aren’t with me
Where did you go?
What did I do wrong?
You walked out on this relationship
A long time ago
Now I’m looking in the mirror
And
I’m alone
I want
To see you
Looking at me
Into my heart
Where your name lies
I want to feel you
Be with me
Want
To be with me
Need
Me
Promise me
I won’t ever be lonely

Written in 2006

This was written for a friend of mine by the name of Patrick. Read it slowly and see if you can grasp it's full meaning. I love you, hon.

If only it appeared
To be
Written in the sky
Amongst the celestial
Painting of our universe

If truly it designed
To become
A meeting of the fates
In this unfathomable
Unity of destiny

Per hope
Crutched by fallacy
And mistrust
A purpose lost
Yet redefined

The fairy tale rewritten
In the dust of aftermath
Collision inconsequence
Misconstrued
Perceived
Incomprehensible
Yet

True

Oooh, a not so old favorite. Let the nasty flavor aromatically devour your senses. Feels good to finally get this off my chest. Yes, I'm swearing. Atypical. I do that a lot lately, now; it seems. Depressing. Just another evident trace of what my life is turning out to be.


You’re such a dumb little bitch
Go ahead and give her another call
I know what she’s going to do
She’s just fing using you
Biding her time for the perfect moment
When she screws you
Oh, but not in the way you want her to
Go ahead, take another step
I wanna watch you fall
Better yet,
Let me push you in
Be consumed by her bull shit
Believe all her lies
And when you decide to come crawling back
Where you had it good
And “I wanna fuck you” meant “come and get it”
I’ll just stand here and laugh
You’re the mockery in this game
Play Follow the Leader and let someone else call the shots
Well I just drew the last card
And I’m happy to say
Fuck you
And I mean it
And not in a good fucking way

To My Love

This bittersweet glorious moment
Soon to come
Will in a sense bade a sorrowful farewell
Prayers enough may not be uttered
So to my love
These own words whispered

Remember the times the moments the places
The nights that never faded
Our misguided hearts uniting as one
The hours of rapturous envelopment
For I was yours truly

A humbling glance at what will be
Near to come
Unveils my eyes to a past most cherished
Promises enough might not be spoken
So to my love
These own words whispered

Remember the times the moments the places
The words sung by such sweet lips
Our souls enlightened suddenly found home
For such a time as this neither had expected
And I was truly yours

Remember the times the moments the places
The hands that woven escape time
Our eyes spellbound by the others gaze
A tale of legend and lore is written
For I am truly yours

So to my love
These own words whispered
Remember the times the moments the places
For I was and am truly yours

I hate saying goodbye.
I hate watching you leave.
Every time you drive away,
My heart breaks just a little more.